Big Clown Shoes

The night I lost you to the other side

That was the night that Charlie died

That’s what I feared the most

 Just can’t compete with your memory ghost.

I’m back on that Parisian Street

You’re laughing, then you’re fading out

I’m back at you styling it out

My heart in the lost and found

I’m back in my big clown shoes

Stumbling through a life you refused.

Painted smile

But I still bruise

Im back

Back in my big clown shoes

The day you just sat and cried

That was the day that Charlie died,

Twenty-four hours turned to forty-eight

Now you’re lying with the man you hate.

I’m back to the morning love notes

Coffee rings on folded vows

I’m learning how to cope

Talking to the walls out loud.

I’m back in my big clown shoes

Stumbling through a life you refused.

Painted smile

But I still bruise

Im back

Back in my big clown shoes

Every step just leads me back to you.

Yeah

I’m back

Back in my big clown shoes.

Tell me

Do you ever walk my hall at night? ( yeah)

Do you trace the places we used to fight?

You crossed over

But you never really left

I wear the sorrow like a bright red vest

I’m back in my big clown shoes

Tripping over every thought of you

Cheap disguise

But it bleeds through

I’m back

Back in my big clown shoes.

Round this empty living room

Yeah

I’m back

Back in my big clown shoes.

(J. Guinness 2021)